We are gathered here today to immortalize the Queen known as Felicity Smoak, and to take a look back at her journey:
She is with us to say “don’t give up.” Amongst impossible odds and even amidst antagonism from the same side of the line, she gracefully, strongly, calmly, and with fiery conviction proclaims hope for even the most hopeless of men and women.
Fel-ic-it-y. Sitting behind a computer, and not only coding her way through the latest puzzle or problem, listens. She was even listening during the times when death was a viable option for Oliver. When death was preferable to the person who is her life.
She listened. Every gunshot. Every stab. Every explosion. To every catch of breath and to every sigh of relief, she listened.
There is heroism in that. In being the person who listens, who works the behind the scenes magic, and is there to pick up the pieces when a hero’s journey blurs because of obstacles and seemingly unachievable goals.
It’s heroism not obviously translated under the weight of a sparkly cape. But it’s heroism nonetheless. It’s heroic, being the person who stays. Because no one can do this alone, everyone brings something to a team.
It might not always be easy. But what’s beautiful about Felicity Megan Smoak, is sometimes, and albeit most of the time, it’s the easiest thing in the world.
She’s equipped for this life. It’s given her purpose and drive and confidence. It’s because of this mission, and because of him, her life is full.
“Don’t fight to die. Fight to live.” -Felicity Smoak
She’s the glue, she’s the beating heart, and her journey and her relationship to the celebrity archer Oliver Queen reflect as much.
And as the listener, and as the one who solves the puzzles (techy or otherwise), the pressure of those roles doesn’t ever take away from her most important one.
She’s the harnesser of light, and to quote a fairly popular Hozier song, “the giggle at a funeral.” That’s fundamental in a show like Arrow. Where the characters more often march to funeral processions than run victory laps.
Felicity’s light, happiness, and all around joy never diminishes someone else’s pain, sorrow, and heartbreak. She just helps them see on the other side. Where the grass isn’t necessarily greener, but the same shade it’s always been. It’s okay to not be okay, but she’s here when you’re ready to be.
“One of the reasons I fell in love with you was because you were always willing to do what was right. No matter what the cost. Even if it’s unbearably hard. It’s what makes you you. So how can I be any different? You have sacrificed your soul for the team, for the city, and for me. You don’t have to carry that burden any longer… let me do it.” -Felicity Smoak
Felicity’s darker moments, á la, letting Cayden James out of lockup, kidnapping a Longbow Hunter for information, threatening to kill Diaz while he was unarmed and handcuffed to a table, wasn’t great, per se. However, it was more so the product of the realities of living this life. I’m not saying Felicity never takes responsibility for her actions, because she does. I’m just saying her darker actions have always been more on the morally gray side then the rock-bottom “no way out” side. And in the grand scheme of things, if that list of offenses is Felicity’s darkest deeds… just sign me up as co-signed for the Felicity-Smoak-Getting-Sh*t-Done-Since-2012 Newsletter.
Even in her darkest moments her motivations are never questioned or viewed as a childish overreaction. Her motivations are noble, just like another hero we know.
“You can worry about your dad but you have to believe that he’s going to be okay. Because that’s the only way this works.” -Felicity Smoak
Part of her journey is motherhood, and it wasn’t thrusted upon Felicity against her will, nor was it something she regretted. The bond William and Felicity share was seamless and unassuming. Felicity wasn’t walking around like she’s replacement mother, and William wasn’t slamming his doors and screaming, “but you’re not my mom!”
And for a couple months there, it was just William and Felicity. For a couple months, Felicity was his only parent. And Felicity was the only person who could get through to him about what being The Green Arrow means.
And we all know why. Because she’s the listener, and has that insight as the person who stays, and the person who “overwatches.” William needed Felicity in that moment, even if he didn’t know it.
Then came Mia Smoak, and with any mother-daughter relationship there was contention. But always love. Incredible love.
Felicity kept her promise to Oliver, she kept their children safe. For twenty years, all while building a tech empire, and being mostly alone. If that’s not a superhero, then I don’t know what is.
“I’ve waited a very long time to see him. I’m ready.” -Felicity Smoak
If you ever wondered why this beautifully nerdy and techy girl has such a clear understanding of life, I have a theory. She was a genius growing up in Sin City (also known as Las Vegas). I believe that in itself evolved her intelligence beyond just being crazy-good at math. She saw the beautiful and ugly sides of people, in a very unique way. I think that in part made Felicity, Felicity.
And while her hope and strength is infectious and inspiring, her last moments reflected as much. And nothing made me happier then seeing her go to Oliver in the multiverse, or wherever he is, after all this time. Because their love is bigger than the frickin’ universe.
Goodbye, Felicity Smoak.
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