Shadowhunters 3×19, Season 3 Episode 19 “Aku Cinta Kamu” aired April 22, 2019
If last week’s Shadowhunters stabbed us right in the heart, this week’s episode twists the knife. Lately, it’s been all hurt, no comfort for Shadowhunters’ fans and “Aku Cinta Kamu” continues this trend. In an attempt to save Clary, Jace goes undercover to join Team Evil while Izzy, Simon and Luke work feverishly on a plan to destroy her bond with Jonathan. In the meantime, Magnus and Alec have to deal with the aftermath of their devastating break-up – and they are not doing well.
Oh, the things we do for love: Undercover Jace
Last week saw Clary go darkside and hurt her lover to rescue her brother. This week, rescuing Clary from Jonathan takes the top spot on everybody’s priority list, especially in the light of the Clave’s newly-issued kill order. Claiming that his love for Clary matters more than his loyalty to the Shadowhunters, Jace goes undercover to infiltrate Team Evil. Naturally, Alec isn’t too enthusiastic about this risky plan, but understands Jace’s need to go through with it as it might be the only way to save Clary. After all, Alec is painfully familiar with making tough choices – regardless how misguided – when it comes to saving loved ones.
A Parabatai moment once again cut short
As the two of them talk, Jace inquires after Magnus’ whereabouts and Alec reluctantly shares the news of their breakup. Jace is baffled, Alec is on the verge of tears – it’s a Parabatai moment to remember, even though it is (as always) cut short. There are more pressing matters to deal with, and clearly, Alec is nowhere near ready to talk, barely keeping it together. Painful to watch!
Jace joins the dark side – Team Evil rising?
Jonathan smells the rat right away and observes the new trooper for Team Evil closely. His jealousy of Clary’s lover is so strong that we are surprised he doesn’t turn dark green on the spot! Once again it is so very obvious that Jonathan’s love for Clary is not of the brotherly kind. By now we are used to it and don’t even cringe anymore. Should we be concerned? Most definitely!
Luke Baines’ portrayal of Jonathan continues to be a fascinating character study. The way he slips in traces of vulnerability into this otherwise dark, creepy and mentally unstable character makes it almost impossible to hate Jonathan – although we certainly should!
Partying at the Bone Chandelier: Jonathan at his creepiest, Clace at their sexiest
In another attempt of getting their hands on the Morningstar sword, Jonathan and Clary plan to kidnap the Seelie Queen as a bargaining chip. We know, we know: It’s a spectacularly bad idea, as anyone of sound mind can see. The problem with the Morgensterns? They are not exactly sane.
The siblings take Jace along to the “Bone Chandelier” in Prague, a club the Seelie Queen frequents once a month to party. We are treated to amazingly detailed club scenes and it’s certainly nice to get to know other Downworld party spots besides Pandemonium. However, we are fairly certain that Pandemonium might be the safer and saner location to party at. A chandelier made out of the bones of Shadowhunters? Disgusting and disturbing.
The scenes in the club are vivid and dark with an excitingly dangerous kind of feel to them. On top of that, Clace fans get to enjoy some very heated making out-scenes on the dance floor. Sexy and hot!
Unfortunately, the sexy Clace times cannot last. A very skillfully choreographed and jaw-dropping fight scene takes place between Jace and some Seelie Knights. Clary comes to his rescue, even though Jonathan has just exposed Jace’s true intentions. Once they have defeated the guards, Clary attacks Jace and threatens to “end him” if he attempts to take her from her brother again. She then throws him through a portal right back to the New York Institute.
Dark Clary: The love for Jace vs. the devotion to Jonathan
Katherine McNamara really nails it as dark Clary and obviously has a lot of fun in the process. Her dark Clary is a force to be reckoned with, edgy, dangerous and oh-so scary in her deep devotion to her brother. Clearly, the twinning rune has done quite a number on her, though her love for Jace is still there. It’s just that her devotion to Jonathan overrides it – at least momentarily.
If anyone is able to understand her, it will be Jace who went through similar experiences while under Lilith’ influence as the Owl. But in the aftermath of Clary’s attack on him, he is left shaken over the fact that he has, once again, lost his love.
In the meantime, at the Institute…
Things become hectic at the Institute as time is running out. Jonathan has to be stopped from obtaining the Morningstar Sword, but in order to get rid of him, his bond with Clary needs to be severed first. Simon, Izzy and Luke decide that re-forging Glorious might be the only way to accomplish said goals. Fortunately, Luke brings Izzy some tools from his (Iron) sister Cleophas. Wished there was more of Luke in this season!
Sizzy talk Superman. Izzy and Simon = Lois and Clark?
Besides the Heavenly Fire, the crew also needs angel blood to re-forge Glorious. As Jace isn’t available, getting Simon’s blood (who once drank from Jace) is the next best thing. Who would have guessed that there are vampires with a strong aversion to needles? Poor Simon! He needn’t have worried, as Izzy has got him covered. In what is the cutest scene ever, Izzy talks Superman to distract the Daylighter – and Simon is ecstatic to realize that Izzy really knows her Lois Lane and Clark Kent!
Sizzy talking about their budding romance while firmly remaining within Superman terms? It’s too adorable for words and there are plenty of sparks flying.
Simon: “The hot girl doesn’t see the geeky guy with glasses until the hot girl realizes that the geeky guy is totally awesome. She just saw him for who he really is.”
Izzy: “I guess Lois just needed some time to see what was right in front of her.”
A dream come true for Izzy: Re-forging Glorious, Iron Sister – style!
With Simon’s blood, Izzy is able to re-forge Glorious and make her childhood dream of being a Iron Sister come true – at least in parts. Now the only question is: How are they going to get to Jonathan?
Words of Heavenly Fire spread – and it’s causing trouble
Seeing Raphael in broad daylight continues to be a surprise and reminds us of his new status quo. When he visits the Jade Wolf to pay his respects to Maia and Jordan as the new leaders of the New York pack, he tells them about Heavenly Fire. Needless to say they want to get their hands on the serum and are devastated to learn that there’s only one vial left.
This leads to the question of what will be done with the vial. To whom will it be given? Who is worth saving? Is someone more worthy of receiving a second chance than others? An interesting moral dilemma – and one that Jordan isn’t quite willing to wait out. He takes action and steals the serum. Will he give it to Maia to right a wrong?
Magnus: A trip down memory lane
Keeping his part of the devastating deal made with Alec, Asmodeus returns Magnus’ magic – along with sappy claims that he wants to be his father again. Initially, Magnus will have none of it.
Throughout the episode, we see Magnus wandering the city and experiencing flashbacks to meaningful moments shared with Alec. All these memories are happy ones: Alec surprising him with a love lock, the couple enjoying time with Madzie and talking about their future (sharing their life, having kids of their own). But reliving (and witnessing) them now, post break up, turns them bitter and painful.
The kaleidoscope of memories old and new, some well-known, others unfamiliar to the viewers, is incredibly well-done and a love letter to Malec’s epic relationship so far.
Magnus’ trip down memory’s lane is a painful journey. However, the most gut-wrenching moment occurs when Magnus throws Malec’s “Aku Cinta Kamu” lock onto the ground and incinerates it in a fit of anger. Oh Magnus – how could you?
Harry Shum Jr.’s acting is so intense and spot on that he makes us feel every single one of the warlock’s emotions, leaving us hurting and raw. This is a Magnus we have never seen before. He appears to be utterly broken and miserable and there’s only one valid conclusion: His main source of happiness was Alec and not his magic.
While it is true that he loved countless times in the past, nothing can compare to his love for Alec. Alec’s different and he has never loved someone as deeply as Alec. As we have predicted previously, Alec’s attempt of “fixing” Magnus did the opposite: Losing Alec is breaking him and so Magnus comes up with a drastic solution.
Brother Zachariah – The Silent brother breaks his silence
In his despair, he turns to Brother Zachariah (intense: Jonathan Ho) and asks him to erase all memories of Alec. In what is the most surprising moment of this episode, the Silent Brother breaks his silence because he feels that “some words are too important not to be spoken aloud.” He makes a point of reassuring his old friend that he will always be there for him while at the same time refusing his request, reminding Magnus that he has the power to get rid of the memories himself. Thank you, Brother Z – we knew we could rely on you!
“You have the magic, you simply don’t have the heart. Because deep down, you know you’ll regret it.
If erasing Alec from your life is truly what you want, you’ll find the strength to do it on your own.”
Asmodeus: Well played, Prince of Hell, well played!
In the end, it’s Asmodeus who prevents Magnus from erasing the memories, despicably exploiting Magnus’ momentary vulnerability by playing the loving father. It speaks volumes about Magnus’ fragile state of mind and his desperate need for comfort that he leans into Asmodeus’ hug. The look of triumph on the greater demon’s face gives us the chills. This guy is up to no good.
As the episode fades to black, we are left with at least one pressing question: When Asmodeus returns Magnus’ magic, Magnus states: “With you, there’s always a price.” Why doesn’t Magnus realize that the price has already been paid, in full, by Alec? Hell, why doesn’t the penny drop the moment he lays eyes on Asmodeus?
Once again, this episode made it painfully obvious that there were so many amazing story lines and arcs meant to be carried over to a fourth season. This show hasn’t reached its pinnacle yet, and with just one episode left (the original season 3 finale) and the following two-part-finale, it’s hard to imagine that everything will be wrapped up in a satisfying way. But we’ll wait and see.
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